Kimchi's point of view

 

So now half of my work day is done, 9h at the office is done. Just came home so have cleaned and fixed some things. And now I have to get going as its time to work with my funny family at the Karaoke bar, just 6,5h work there today. This is how my days are going to look this week before the Christmas vacation. Well anyways, Im still energetic (even though im still freaking sick) and real damn happy. How can't you be when your friends and family are happy and life is going great for them. Like honestly it doesn’t matter how crazy my own life gets and how hurt I can be. My best medicine has always been my loved ones happiness. This may be the reason to how I always can keep in touch with people and forgive. You know it takes much more energy being mad and in fights than wishing people the best. I mean why not put that energy on making something on your own life, finding happiness and success whatever that is for you :D..Like for me alot of my inner happiness comes from work achievements, haha yes I am a bit crazy but thats me :P..

Anyways here is one of my absolute favorite songs, has been it the last weeks. I just loooove her rough voice and the lyrics is so freaking great, got a lot of truth and hits a bit home for me...Then I also like that it samples 50cents Gangsta...Enjoy Kat Dahlia's song Gangsta and have a great night ;) 

Just love miss Alicia Keys and her songs, this was just hit home. Couldnt have said it better :)

 

 

Hey, if you were a friend, you'd want to get know me again
If you were worth a while, You'd be happy to see me smile
I'm not expecting sorry, I'm too busy finding myself
I got this, I found me,
I don't need your opinion
I'm not waiting for your ok
I'll never be perfect, but at least now i'm brave
Now, my heart is open, And I can finally breathe

So,
Don't be mad, it's just the brand new kind of free
That ain't bad, I found a brand new kind of me
Don't be mad, it's a brand new time for me, yeah

 

Here is a song by Leftside ft Sean Paul that gets me into dancehall party mode :D

Want Yuh Body 

 

jahapp then its was lil lördag as we call it in Swedish. Today I was suppose to go to a photo-shoot with my friend, but she cancelled it when she found out the photographer was a perv, wanted her to take the shoot nude..So hell no to that...but we were kind of happy as we got to sleep in. So now several hours later we are now ready to go to town and buy the last things for the weekend, then its time for work. :D

 

 

Tudeluu, I finally managed to fall a sleep around 7 AM and woke up around 1. So happy that I got some sleep, so anyways so far its been an okay day. Have just been chilling with bestie while she is fixing her hair and talked non stop on the phone. Im so blessed that I've got my counselor just one call away, really got the best hospital by my side who always to everything to be there for me no matter where in the world I am. I mean how many counselors contact you from abroad or how many doctors make sure you get the medicines you need asap even if you are in Asia?..Haha my support team is the best, and im not afraid of admitting that you sometimes need regular counseling, if you go through hell, why not get help so that you can do the best of your life? With that said I hope more people would take the help they need. 

Dappy - Ying Yang 

This day stated of calm and boring. Had nothing planned for the day so cleaned and cooked and chilled and was happy with that. But THEN I got this annoying message that made me mad and after a call that gave me more information I got really FURIOUS. As you see when you mess with me its one thing, but when you mess with my family and talk trash its on a whole other level that you don’t want to see. So as you can see it quickly became a what the hell are you doing conversation between me and the person I despise the most on this whole damn planet. How can you be so damn stupid and not respect peoples wishes and not own up for the shit you've done and now play the VICTIM..haha just saying I am the wrong girl to turn to.. Anyways its nice having that out of my system, but If history will repeat it self, I know this is not the end of it. And I know I will have to be even more private and first of all change my damn number again!! 

Oh well the evening wasn’t great  but thanks to my support system of my mom, sis, bestie and goofy I wasn’t far from a smile again. So it turned out to be a good night with nice food and laughs. But now Im afraid of falling asleep as I always get nightmares when this damn book opens and it all comes back. But I have to be stronger than this and not get affected by it. 

Looking at my FB, everyone is writing TGIF, and I guess it is...but for me its another day at work...So right now me and B are going to shop and get a package for her baby. Then its time for me to work at the Bar. Its Friday so   its going to be loads of stuff to do with all the party people. Hope that nobody is so crazy that they make me drop 10 shots all over me like last night...was great smelling booze all night haha :P..

Oh well have a great night and party for me 2 :D

 

 

 

This morning I got a nice call with good news. I got a job I didn’t think I would. So slowly my plans are going, as they should. So now I’m really going to be a workaholic with 2 jobs. Yes I know, it may sound crazy to have one full time job 8-17 and one 80% night job 18:45 -01 /03:30.. but I'll make it work, just going to bring back my discipline. And that wont be hard when I love to work and try new things. So hope it all will go well at the new job at Försvarsmakten (Swedish military).

Now I have to get running, time for a day in town with Black Barbie :D 

 

I’m usually not this open or emotional to the public. But this is what’s on my mind. So this time I'll share a part of my private notes. 

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Its never the right time to say goodbye to someone that has been a big and important part of you. But sometimes you just know that its the right thing to do even though it makes you sad and you wish that you were much stronger than this so that you could forgive, be the girl the person needed, be happy with the person and just move on. But we are all in the end just humans, people who have got feelings and can't live with everything and everyone. Therefore I've made the hard decision with moving on and living my life without you in it. I will always cherish our memories and everything you've ever done for me. This really comes from my heart when I say, I truly wish you the very best in life, with your personality you'll achieve great things. Im sorry for being complicated but this is for the both of us, and I hope you'll one day understand all this. 

Im going to miss you and with that I'm now closing this book.  

Love, Belly 

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♥

Oh yeah about the nigh life, I also got some questions what have happened to my crazy partying, if I've moved or got sick or something...naah not really, just have worked a lot and I work those days people are out..but the last 2 weeks me and now days my partner in crime Karro has been out a bit. We do go to after works after work (yes after 1-3in the morning, the clubs are open to 5 :P 

The after works usually end up being real interesting, as we've got the talent of finding strange and funny people. We also love to just take a drink and relax, enjoy life and make fun of one and other. Like when Karro sent an annoying Indian guy after me, or when an African guy always had to give me a hug and scream you are sooo CUUUTE that I have to hug you but don’t hate me...I gave him like over 10 hugs haha...The other week out, our nights out were a blast, on Tuesday me, Karro and chris went for dinner at a Texas steakhouse, then took drinks at East, O bar and Soap bar...somehow this night turned out to be crazy even though it was suppose to be chill and I had a Korea wasted moment...

Was hangover the whole Wednesday, but at least I had a blast and figured out some things :P..On Thursday me and Karro was just going to take ONE beer after work...but nah that didn’t happen. Instead my roomie Robyn joined us and my boss and his friends. So we had a night out at East and then Spy bar. Had a blast with a lot of drinks and laughter. And I wasn’t wasted :D...Last week I wasn’t supposed to go out that much, had just promised my wifey to have one big night out and then maybe some party on Saturday otherwise its just hard work until the wedding the 20th. But now that Im truly single I'll probably be back to my old self and out anytime possible doing fun stuff :P

 

Here is little miss innocent / loca  

Oh finally the weekend is here. I've so longed for the weekend. Has been a strange week at work, with lets say "special" people there, traffic stocks, SL not working and having huge problems and me just being in a relax mode, just wanting to take it easy. But I still love working, you can't take the work out a workaholic :P..and apparently not the fun out of her. We've figured out that this little missy needs her weekly dose of fun and laughter to be healthy. And now days this equals with some visits at East and spy bar and future planning: D.. After getting some great news last week I huge part of my problems and pain disappeared and now I can really focus on my bright future. I wont be sharing them until I've had my meetings, all I can say is that its going to be a proactive and event full two years coming. Getting some steps closer to being a full time businesswoman living it up. So thanks to my mentor and closed ones I've got the push I needed to get back up. 

Anyways, I don’t have any plans for this weekend, just going to chill, make my calls, watch all my episodes, go on some fikas, cook and probably go out for one or two beers :P..

Hope you've had a great weekend!

 

 

Damn its already wensday night..but this day has so far been great. Only got super news all day so after chatting with the family and girls its finally time for me to get ready for a night out. I have to support my wifey with her hard work. So today im against my own rule Im going to set my foot at Ego club. Thank God its Wifeys management who is fixing things. So going to be a good night, but first I gotta get dressed, then go meet Tefo for some drinks before its time for the club. Will post some outfit pics later on, but till then enjoy the song of the day. 

 

 

 

Oh yeah about the nigh life, I also got some questions what have happened to my crazy partying, if I've moved or got sick or something...naah not really, just have worked a lot and I work those days people are out..but the last 2 weeks me and now days my partner in crime Karro has been out a bit. We do go to after works after work (yes after 1-3in the morning, the clubs are open to 5 :P)...

The after works usually end up being real interesting, as we've got the talent of finding strange and funny people. We also love to just take a drink and relax, enjoy life and make fun of one and other. Like when Karro sent an annoying Indian guy after me, or when an African guy always had to give me a hug and scream you are sooo CUUUTE that I have to hug you but don’t hate me...I gave him like over 10 hugs haha...

Last week out nights out were a blast, on Tuesday me, Karro and chris went for dinner at a Texas steakhouse, then took drinks at East, O bar and Soap bar...somehow this night turned out to be crazy even though it was suppose to  be chill and I had a Korea wasted moment..was hangover the whole Wednesday, but at least I had a blast and figured out some things :P..on Thursday me and Karro was just going to take ONE beer after work...but nah that didn’t happen. Instead my roomie Robyn joined us and my boss and his friends. So we had a night out at East and then Spy bar. Had a blast with a lot of drinks and laughter. And I wasnt wasted :D...This week Im not supposed to go out that much, have promised my wifey to have one big night out and then maybe some party on Saturday otherwise its just hard work until the wedding the 20th. But now that im truly single I'll probably be back to my old self and out anytime possible doing fun stuff :P  

 

Tudeluu, its finally the weekend for me..haha yes I know its Monday, but my weekends starts on Sundays til Wednesday :P..So anyways what have I've been up too expect posting songs?...Well I've been working as a maniac at the Karaoke bar. I love my workplace, I always get a good laugh and you never know what can happen there, and then I really get along with my co-workers, especially Karro who is at the same crazy level as me :P..Well anyway thesis past weeks at work has been reeeeeal interesting. We've had a recording for a tv show at work, with a bunch of bloggers who had a blast, then we have has some Swedish celebrities there, like Måns Zemerlöw, when it comes to our regular guest, we've had some crazy ones..first on Thursday I had to kick out some guest who were rude, way to drunk and stood on the table. So that’s not exemptible, and on Saturday I got the "honor" to walk into a  room that had a bachelor party, and the grum was but naked...so yes Im scarred for life now! haha...People keep on asking me how I can keep on working with clubs, bars and nightshifts? well I looove events and the nightlife and I always get a big smile so why not? Some people love to work with kids and I like to work with the nightlife :P

 This weekend I've started real chill, I slept most of the day yesterday, then had a chill dinner and movie night with Bongie, her baby, Felicia and her brother. I love Felicias brother, such a mature guy for just being 18, and damn has he gone through hell. Let people live their life no matter what sexuality you've got. I know the African community has got a hard time with it, but time to come to year 2012 and give love not hate and drama! :) With that said, today has been a cold day, so me and bongie has cleaned the house, I baked scones and now I've taken a glass of my new favorite wine..:) 

 

 

Ciara is finally back and with a bang. Damn this girl is still queen of dance for me. Like everything stops for a second when she dances with that fabolouse body and smooth voice. So of course Im hooked on her new song Sorry, that also is a bit personal for me.

Enjoy

 

 

Was ages ago I had a Swedish headline, but this is from a song by Mårdh & Shivano that I just cant get enough of. Its about doing the best in your life, its time to wake up and make your dreams come true, just live and smile a bit. If you like Swedish Rnb/Hip hop you should listen to the duo.

Well anyways, its crazy but its already Saturday even though it feels like its Thursday. But I guess you can say that the days has gone by so fast as I've had so much to do. I have meanly been working at the Karaoke bar. Its Sweden’s only Japanese inspired Karaoke bar, in other words the only place where you can rent a private room and have got room service. So if you like to sing and hang out with friends and drink. This is the perfect pre-party place. Welcome to K Karaoke at Odenplan in Stockholm. (www.kkaraoke.se)

Working nightshifts has resulted in me living the life as a vampire, sleep during the days and am alive during the nights. Well the other day, on Wednesday, I had a real nice after work with my boss Karro, haha having after work at 3:30 in the morning was a new thing. But anyways me, her and Mikis went to Spy bar, a night club that is open until 5ish, then we went to the harbor and drank some more and later on me and Karro went to the park, drank some more, had a chat and took pictures of me having fun with the statues.

We finally finished the after work with a breakfast buffé at Berns that was amazing! So little miss Kimchi came home around 9-10 in the morning haha..That’s what I can call enjoying life.

 

So well now, I have to get running, have to go to Sumpan and visit my favorite cat Habibi, that I'm babysitting while Shara is in Gbg..after that I'll try to visit some stores and then its time for work :D..

Have a great day people

Xoxo Kimchi

Last weekend, I finally got to do my 4th tattoo.

It angel wings that are raped around a heart, and under it it says J.W 1995. This tattoo is in memory of my birth mom who passed away 1995. So now I've got both of my moms on my arms :D

It's only Wednesday, so only 3 days of this week has passed. But after the huge dramas the last 2days it feels like the whole week has passed. I cant believe that so much crap can happen in such a short time and cause so much pain, drama and bad consequences. So for the moment I can honestly say that I'm at a low point, my energy and patience to be nice to people is all gone. If other peoples drama affects me this bad, I cant help but eliminate that drama. Enough is enough and we've all got our own things to deal with. Im sorry but I can't be mother Theresa or play pick a boo here is the next damaged person you need to fix and take under your wings.

With that said, I also want to thank E and my goofy for being there for me, meant a lot that you could pick me up when I broke down <3