Oh my this morning I had a real hard time waking up that early. Getting used to early mornings when you are a nigh person will be a struggle. But i woke up came early to work at the Swedish armed force and have now just had lunch. I've been in so many meetings today that Im confused and the new system we are going to work with is complicated and you can't make mistakes. Haha well have to stark working. Have a good day. 
It's a new week and therefore time for new adventures. In this case it's even more hard work for me the coming months. Started my new job at the military today..Fun being back in the office but also can't wait to work with my hilarious co workers at the karaoke bar. Its going to be hard but I think I'll manage to work six days a week and surpise surpise clubb SKOSKAV is back sooner then you know :D can't wait for that..well enough said about work..I just had.my first free weekend in months and it was surely eventful. On Friday I didn't go to the October party but.instead met up with my bro wiz who was the sweetest and bought me a whole bottle of wine and cash so that I could party hard. So I ended up clubbing in town at TABU Nightclub. The venue is stunning and love that Dj Jamalde plays there. So was a lot of dancing and nice people there. On Saturday I was super tired but it was the wedding day. So went to church, dinner, pre party and wedding party. Everything was really beautiful, especially the couple who were glowing. And it was a real happy moment with hundreds of party people. The.coolest thing was the.party location that had a pool inside haha. Must say that all the kids and dancers also were amazing. So anyways came home around six in the morning like a zombie. So Sunday me and Francis had a long recovery day just chilling passing out eating and watching shows haha :P 
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jahapp then its was lil lördag as we call it in Swedish. Today I was suppose to go to a photo-shoot with my friend, but she cancelled it when she found out the photographer was a perv, wanted her to take the shoot nude..So hell no to that...but we were kind of happy as we got to sleep in. So now several hours later we are now ready to go to town and buy the last things for the weekend, then its time for work. :D
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Tudeluu, I finally managed to fall a sleep around 7 AM and woke up around 1. So happy that I got some sleep, so anyways so far its been an okay day. Have just been chilling with bestie while she is fixing her hair and talked non stop on the phone. Im so blessed that I've got my counselor just one call away, really got the best hospital by my side who always to everything to be there for me no matter where in the world I am. I mean how many counselors contact you from abroad or how many doctors make sure you get the medicines you need asap even if you are in Asia?..Haha my support team is the best, and im not afraid of admitting that you sometimes need regular counseling, if you go through hell, why not get help so that you can do the best of your life? With that said I hope more people would take the help they need.
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This day stated of calm and boring. Had nothing planned for the day so cleaned and cooked and chilled and was happy with that. But THEN I got this annoying message that made me mad and after a call that gave me more information I got really FURIOUS. As you see when you mess with me its one thing, but when you mess with my family and talk trash its on a whole other level that you don’t want to see. So as you can see it quickly became a what the hell are you doing conversation between me and the person I despise the most on this whole damn planet. How can you be so damn stupid and not respect peoples wishes and not own up for the shit you've done and now play the VICTIM..haha just saying I am the wrong girl to turn to.. Anyways its nice having that out of my system, but If history will repeat it self, I know this is not the end of it. And I know I will have to be even more private and first of all change my damn number again!!
Oh well the evening wasn’t great but thanks to my support system of my mom, sis, bestie and goofy I wasn’t far from a smile again. So it turned out to be a good night with nice food and laughs. But now Im afraid of falling asleep as I always get nightmares when this damn book opens and it all comes back. But I have to be stronger than this and not get affected by it.
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Looking at my FB, everyone is writing TGIF, and I guess it is...but for me its another day at work...So right now me and B are going to shop and get a package for her baby. Then its time for me to work at the Bar. Its Friday so its going to be loads of stuff to do with all the party people. Hope that nobody is so crazy that they make me drop 10 shots all over me like last night...was great smelling booze all night haha :P..
Oh well have a great night and party for me 2 :D
Oh damn this weather is killing me..Its so cold that you already need gloves and a lot of clothes. Haha yes I know this is just the beginning, but Im so not made for the cold...well anyways yesterday evening I didn't do much..had the nightshift and we had Spotify as our guest..they are regulars there. So they had fun and then a friend came to visit me at work. So that was nice..but got to be a late night and early morning as I was going to start the new job. But the system is down so Im going to start in 2weeks instead. :P Kind of felt nice when I needed to sleep...well anyways now its time for a fika with Katta who is back...wiihoo :D 
Haha today I kind of went crazy with making up my mind. If I was going to take the new job, how my schedule would be, booking meetings and just plan the future. Luckily i got advice from my friend, aunt and consuler. Im still kind of questioning things but I think when this damn migraine goes over..I'll be able to think as right now it hurts like hell and Im super tired and of to the bar to work..so party people of Sthlm be calm and nice :P haha well have a great night :D Category: Musik
I just looooove it when Ne-yo makes this kind of songs. Its similar to Miss independent but I still really like it. Encouraging woman is a great thing.
Ne-yo ft Wiz Khalifa - Don't make them like you
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This morning I got a nice call with good news. I got a job I didn’t think I would. So slowly my plans are going, as they should. So now I’m really going to be a workaholic with 2 jobs. Yes I know, it may sound crazy to have one full time job 8-17 and one 80% night job 18:45 -01 /03:30.. but I'll make it work, just going to bring back my discipline. And that wont be hard when I love to work and try new things. So hope it all will go well at the new job at Försvarsmakten (Swedish military).
Now I have to get running, time for a day in town with Black Barbie :D
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I’m usually not this open or emotional to the public. But this is what’s on my mind. So this time I'll share a part of my private notes.
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Its never the right time to say goodbye to someone that has been a big and important part of you. But sometimes you just know that its the right thing to do even though it makes you sad and you wish that you were much stronger than this so that you could forgive, be the girl the person needed, be happy with the person and just move on. But we are all in the end just humans, people who have got feelings and can't live with everything and everyone. Therefore I've made the hard decision with moving on and living my life without you in it. I will always cherish our memories and everything you've ever done for me. This really comes from my heart when I say, I truly wish you the very best in life, with your personality you'll achieve great things. Im sorry for being complicated but this is for the both of us, and I hope you'll one day understand all this.
Im going to miss you and with that I'm now closing this book.
Love, Belly
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♥
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Oh yeah about the nigh life, I also got some questions what have happened to my crazy partying, if I've moved or got sick or something...naah not really, just have worked a lot and I work those days people are out..but the last 2 weeks me and now days my partner in crime Karro has been out a bit. We do go to after works after work (yes after 1-3in the morning, the clubs are open to 5 :P
The after works usually end up being real interesting, as we've got the talent of finding strange and funny people. We also love to just take a drink and relax, enjoy life and make fun of one and other. Like when Karro sent an annoying Indian guy after me, or when an African guy always had to give me a hug and scream you are sooo CUUUTE that I have to hug you but don’t hate me...I gave him like over 10 hugs haha...The other week out, our nights out were a blast, on Tuesday me, Karro and chris went for dinner at a Texas steakhouse, then took drinks at East, O bar and Soap bar...somehow this night turned out to be crazy even though it was suppose to be chill and I had a Korea wasted moment...
Was hangover the whole Wednesday, but at least I had a blast and figured out some things :P..On Thursday me and Karro was just going to take ONE beer after work...but nah that didn’t happen. Instead my roomie Robyn joined us and my boss and his friends. So we had a night out at East and then Spy bar. Had a blast with a lot of drinks and laughter. And I wasn’t wasted :D...Last week I wasn’t supposed to go out that much, had just promised my wifey to have one big night out and then maybe some party on Saturday otherwise its just hard work until the wedding the 20th. But now that Im truly single I'll probably be back to my old self and out anytime possible doing fun stuff :P
Here is little miss innocent / loca
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Oh finally the weekend is here. I've so longed for the weekend. Has been a strange week at work, with lets say "special" people there, traffic stocks, SL not working and having huge problems and me just being in a relax mode, just wanting to take it easy. But I still love working, you can't take the work out a workaholic :P..and apparently not the fun out of her. We've figured out that this little missy needs her weekly dose of fun and laughter to be healthy. And now days this equals with some visits at East and spy bar and future planning: D.. After getting some great news last week I huge part of my problems and pain disappeared and now I can really focus on my bright future. I wont be sharing them until I've had my meetings, all I can say is that its going to be a proactive and event full two years coming. Getting some steps closer to being a full time businesswoman living it up. So thanks to my mentor and closed ones I've got the push I needed to get back up.
Anyways, I don’t have any plans for this weekend, just going to chill, make my calls, watch all my episodes, go on some fikas, cook and probably go out for one or two beers :P..
Hope you've had a great weekend!
Right now Im starting of this day by taking a hot nice bubble bath, with candles and a drink. One of the best ways to clear your head and have a nice "me" time. 
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On my way home from a lovely girls night with Shara. She cooked yummie food with beans and salad that I love. And as she had had a stressful day at work she really needed a drink. Therefore we decided to have a dry martini night, so nice. And with that we had a lot of girl talk and watched some strange Swedish shows. like Swedish Hollywood wifes and 69 thing who didn't know about sex. We actually though the last show was interesting, got to have some fun discussion :P Anyways I've had another nice night and I can't wait til tomorrow :).. 
Last night was a blast. Me and barbie hanged out with some funny girls first at Matsalen and the went to Malmen where we met an old friend who gave me a lot of business advice but he at the same time wanted to kill me for being strong minded :P..well the night ended at 54 and then mc donalds. it was just a perfect chill night out that I needed. and today I woke up super happy without having any nightmares. had a chat with roomie about her crazy night/morning at the court. Then I went of to a job meeting at the military, met a child hood friend in town..and now im on my way home before running of to my dinner date. :D 
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Oh yeah about the nigh life, I also got some questions what have happened to my crazy partying, if I've moved or got sick or something...naah not really, just have worked a lot and I work those days people are out..but the last 2 weeks me and now days my partner in crime Karro has been out a bit. We do go to after works after work (yes after 1-3in the morning, the clubs are open to 5 :P)...
The after works usually end up being real interesting, as we've got the talent of finding strange and funny people. We also love to just take a drink and relax, enjoy life and make fun of one and other. Like when Karro sent an annoying Indian guy after me, or when an African guy always had to give me a hug and scream you are sooo CUUUTE that I have to hug you but don’t hate me...I gave him like over 10 hugs haha...
Last week out nights out were a blast, on Tuesday me, Karro and chris went for dinner at a Texas steakhouse, then took drinks at East, O bar and Soap bar...somehow this night turned out to be crazy even though it was suppose to be chill and I had a Korea wasted moment..was hangover the whole Wednesday, but at least I had a blast and figured out some things :P..on Thursday me and Karro was just going to take ONE beer after work...but nah that didn’t happen. Instead my roomie Robyn joined us and my boss and his friends. So we had a night out at East and then Spy bar. Had a blast with a lot of drinks and laughter. And I wasnt wasted :D...This week Im not supposed to go out that much, have promised my wifey to have one big night out and then maybe some party on Saturday otherwise its just hard work until the wedding the 20th. But now that im truly single I'll probably be back to my old self and out anytime possible doing fun stuff :P
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Tudeluu, its finally the weekend for me..haha yes I know its Monday, but my weekends starts on Sundays til Wednesday :P..So anyways what have I've been up too expect posting songs?...Well I've been working as a maniac at the Karaoke bar. I love my workplace, I always get a good laugh and you never know what can happen there, and then I really get along with my co-workers, especially Karro who is at the same crazy level as me :P..Well anyway thesis past weeks at work has been reeeeeal interesting. We've had a recording for a tv show at work, with a bunch of bloggers who had a blast, then we have has some Swedish celebrities there, like Måns Zemerlöw, when it comes to our regular guest, we've had some crazy ones..first on Thursday I had to kick out some guest who were rude, way to drunk and stood on the table. So that’s not exemptible, and on Saturday I got the "honor" to walk into a room that had a bachelor party, and the grum was but naked...so yes Im scarred for life now! haha...People keep on asking me how I can keep on working with clubs, bars and nightshifts? well I looove events and the nightlife and I always get a big smile so why not? Some people love to work with kids and I like to work with the nightlife :P
This weekend I've started real chill, I slept most of the day yesterday, then had a chill dinner and movie night with Bongie, her baby, Felicia and her brother. I love Felicias brother, such a mature guy for just being 18, and damn has he gone through hell. Let people live their life no matter what sexuality you've got. I know the African community has got a hard time with it, but time to come to year 2012 and give love not hate and drama! :) With that said, today has been a cold day, so me and bongie has cleaned the house, I baked scones and now I've taken a glass of my new favorite wine..:)
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