The stress from all work and other things are getting to me. After talking to B yesterday some of the things on my mind got eased away. That girl got a lot of insight on me and my reactions to things. She gets me and has no problem of speaking her mind when she thinks Im wrong. haha love her for that.
But anyways, got to face one big thing today that I didnt expect I would get to face so soon. Wasnt the best place to deal with it but at least I got it of my cheast and I know it was for the best. But still doesnt feel all right I'm just more confused. Guess I'll see how this all plays out.
anyways here is a nice song by Lamar Starzz that I've forgot to post.
Yeserday was a real good day. Everything went smooth and everyone was all happy faces. So that was real nice. The night shift went by easy with a lot of smiles and laughs even though most of us were passed exhausted haha. One funny theme of yesterday, pretty much the whole day. Everyone was having relationship problems or questions, like really from people in town, guest, friends etc..everyone.
Anyways I was super energetic so met up my favorite Mariah for an after work at Spy bar. And one of the guards finally asked my...you are always here at this hour, why at this crazy hour and so happy and sober..haha well I always come directly from work and just want to dance and meet up some friends haha :P...Was a few funny things that happend during that short hour at Spy, but it was a blast and then I headed of to an after party with an old friend. Thanks again D for my late bday present, so looooove it :D.. So anyways got to be a real long night out, coming home at 8 am. And now its time to get ready and celebrate wifey big time with the huge crew. Starting of with an italian dinner then clubbin all night.
I just had an inspiring interview with one of the founders for the organization Real Stars. An organization that works against sex trafficking in Sweden and the EU. They have an interesting approach and campaign Fair Sex that Im all for. So if you also think that everyone should have the right to freedom and their human rights.
Tudeluu, its finally Friday and if you don’t have any other reason to be happy today, that should be one reason. Friday=weekend=just be happy.
Yesterday was another comsi comsa day for me, was a long time ago I had a day when I didn’t speak. But that's one thing I do when I process things. I've always been the quite one (surprisingly haha), so some days I just don’t speak at all, I just disconnect from the world. And there is nothing wrong with that, its nice with a break and silence. Well anyways today I've found my strength again and smile. So have been at the gym again, been up on the roof soaking in the sun and now I’m on my way to do an interview for the thesis with the organization Real Stars. That’s going to be fun. And after that its food and then night shift with my lovely dysfunctional co-workers.
I must say thanks to my funny boss, who has his ways of showing us he cares about us. He was upset with me on Tuesday for being super late but then he had bough food for us and my favorite lemon muffins. haha he remembered that I loved them :D so sweet.
So what are my plans for the rest of the weekend? Well I actually have a day of tomorrow to celebrate wifey again before she leaves Sweden. So going all in tomorrow. Then on Sunday its all study and also got a job interview before the new week starts :D
the past week has honestly been real hard for me. Been struggeling with some personal things and a crazy work schedual. But work has in some way helped me go trough it all kind of sane. Just got another week of crazy dubble shifts + school work with inteviews for the thesis. The past days has been sadly heartbreaking, maybe I've been to hard on my self for being emotional. But though I would handle it all much better. Well guess I need more time and space...anytways work has been great and had a lovely night celebrating wifeys big birthday with an asian dinner and then some drinks. Now its time for bed before my sleeping problems/depression really kicks. Happy 1 may pps. <3
Ashanti - Never should have
Balled up, laying in my bed Fortracing through my head How did we start our love end up here You said you loved me and I believed you
Rivers of tear drops, This short pains in my heart This was the way that you loved
You were all that I wanted I fell in love with you 'cause you loved me and I thought that you were ready
Heey folks, so half the week has passed. I havent been up to much have been real sick, with high fever, hard time breathing, panic attacks, shaking etc, yeah you get the picture. The only good thing about it has been that I've finally slept, hopefully now that Im better my sleep will stay with me. Just need to find some peace of mind and get out of the small depression. Its the small things that helps me through my dark times, like stupid laughs, or kind words or pushes from my loved ones and music. So anyways here is a song that has been a favorite for some months, just though of posting it now, that the video is out.
Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ft Ray Dalton - Can't hold us
Tudeluuluu, its finally the weekend. (yes I know its sunday, but this is when my weekend usually starts)
The last past days has been a blure, just been work,gym, work,no sleep, work, party, gym and so on. But Im still a freaking happy chica and well motivated one. With hard work and loving and inspiring people around you, you cant do anything but love life and enjoy the crazy moments that will improve your life. There will always be obsticals and haters around you, but for me that gives me more fire to make it.
So with that said, it wont be surprisning for you that this song is my freaking anthem :D
Most people right now are on their way home from the club or still aslepp in their beds, but I just came back home from a 2,5h workout at the gym. So after having an amazing playlist playing in my ears, I though I would share some songs :)
Fabolouse ft Chris Brown - Ready
The video for this song is finally out, and damn Breezy is to damn hot in this video :D
I so love this inspirational quote that really suits me. It also describes my life, mostly the darkest moments in my life. Through all my struggles, heartache, health issues and misbeliefs. I can without no dough say I wouldn’t be standing here, yeah wouldn’t be breathing if it wasn’t for my amazing strong willing family especially my lion of a mom who I till this day give headaches :P... I've also been blessed to call my small circle of close friends my beloved brothers and sisters who make my every day life fun and joyful. You've seen my craziest, dumbest, happiest, saddest and fast line sides and been just by my side. I love that you also dont have any problems telling me when I am wrong, or yelling at me especially laughing at my sometimes stupidness. When I say this I can especially think of Shara, France, Philly, Inga and Bongie who all have almost killed me for different situations, that we today laugh about. Yeah I can say that I've been blessed to have the chance to meet all the great people around me who inspire me and motivate me to keep on being me and a crazy workaholic determent to live her dreams. So this post is all for you my loved ones, Im happy to have people around me who knows every single bit of me and still love me for me even at the moment when I dont. You can't ask for more than those relationships.
Yey, half the week has soon passed, and I feel like its more than that left. But I guess thats the result of all the work I've had to do at the office, the assignments I have now are super complicated but Im so happy that I figured out all the things to do yesterday, so I've had a good workflow even though its been a bunch to do.
So yeah I would love to go to sleep now, but I can't as my nigh shift starts in a bit, hope its going to be a smooth fun night.....oh yeah if you wounder why I put myself through the hell of working so much, well its because I love to work, and hard work pays off but mostly because I want to be able to do fun stuff and travel soon again...hopefully I can go for a weekend trip to London in a couple of weeks :)..
Anyways, Im still in a crazy good mood despite things with work, sleepless nights and bad news about deaths and heartbreaks arounds me...So here is a song that reminds me of France and mine and Barbies state of mind, that one day we'll be old so better have some great stories to tell haha
Have a great night people and keep that smile on your faces :D
Queen Beyoncé is such an amazing and inspiring person. Not to say strong hard working woman.
I can't wait to see her show "Life is but a dream" but til then I was glad to see Ophra's show with her on the Next chapter about her. It's so nice that they remind people, that stars after all are just like the rest of us when it comes to the important things.
Haha well this Saturday was also interesting. I got to sleep in but I was sick the whole day, hade really bad migraine and had to take real strong medicine to manage the night shift. But after some hours I was functioning normal and all in laugh and smiles thanks to the co-workers who brought me crazy jokes, energy drinks and food. :D The shift went real well and smooth, not that much drama compared to yesterday. Oh yeah we got a theory that it went bonkers yesterday as it also was full moon, so no wonder...After the shift Mikis wanted to have a night out, so me and Karro joined her to Spy bar. And damn it was so much people, a lot of strange ones to. But we ladies had a nice time catching up and talking to our spy bar people. So we had one hour of after work then went o my favorite place MAX and then got a cab ride home. So thanks Karro for tonight. Tomorrow we've got a lovely evening planned with dinner and pub-crawl with the guys. I imagine it’s going to be an interesting but well needed night.
Oh yeah tonights song is the Lion Kings Hakuna Matata
Ofen when I relax or force myself to focuse on something else that doesnt stress me out.
I often end up watching my series. You can easily say that Im a show junkie, I follow so many shows and get hooked so easily haha, here are some of the shows I follow at the moment.
BONES
CRIMINAL MINDS
FRINGE
GREY'S ANATOMY
HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER
LOVE AND HIP HOP S3
NCIS
PERSON OF INTEREST
PRETTY LITTLE LIARS
SWITCHED AT BIRTH
THE BIG BANG THEORY
PROJECT RUNWAY ALL STARTS S2
there are more shows like, Teen Mom, Jersey Show, Top Model, The lying games, Game of thrones, Spartacus, 666, etc
Oh gosh, It's amazing how I just keep on loving Beyonce and Rihanna more for every day. In some ways the are similare but at the same time so different. Beyoncé has always been the leading lady, the queen B. But she has been in the game for so long and made such a name for her. Rihanna has also made an incredible name for her at a so young age, but she is more relatable to me. Dont know how to explain it, but Rihanna is living her life, being young, making mistakes etc growing up. She shows she is just like any other young adult. Beyoncé is the woman you want to become in a couple of years. Both females are crazy beautiful and anyways normal looking for me. Love their independenst and smartness and beauty. Here are some pics from theire latest magasinze covers :D GQ and Complex magazine
As I have the day of today, I planed to sleep in today. But that didn’t work as my neighbors decided to start renovating their home at 7:30 this morning till now. This drilling has been killing me all day, its still ringing in my ears. So in other words I haven’t done much today, despite been in several phone meetings, finally bough my new gym card, ordered contact lenses and made up my mind about taking the offer or not. Decided to not take it, sometimes you have to say no to good opportunities to lay a solid base in your life. :)
Oh yeah, can't forget to remind you all to vote for the Kingsize Gala 2013, hope you'll vote for the best Dj who is DJ Black Moose. :D
Wow time is passing by kind of slow here at work, you can really notice that people have started to go home for Christmas as there isnt much to do. So therefore I've been looking for more flights for this spring. And so far 2 of 3 trips are planned, France and USA yeey :D Im really looking foward to travel again so Im all pumped up right now, especially to this song with Tinie Tempah ft Calvin Harris !!
